38 + weeks

38 weeks... it feels like this is never going to happen.. and I am not the one with all the heavy baby :)

V is over it. Bruiser is getting bigger every day and is sitting very low which adds to the uncomfortable life she is living for us. Almost every time she goes out now someone says how "big or huge" she is and then they go into detail about how their last few weeks of pregnancy was so hard. It's their right as a mother to spill out stories of painful kicks, sore rob cages and breathless days. Cut the crap ladies. I know you dont generally get to whinge about those last few weeks of your pregnancies but seriously.. go find another pregnant lady to hassel!

Adrian and I have been pretty calm about everything and I was feeling really comfortable until last week when a girlfrield of mine had serious complications at birth and her little man Benjamin passed away. What happened to her was so reminiscent of what we went through with Sophie it was a little too close to the bone and it really affected me.

The problem is my anxiety was rubbing off on V which was terrible, so I have now taken a step back from my fears and I have realised this is different. There is no connection or correlation to my friend or what we went through with Sophie. She/He is safe and happy and will come out when He/She is ready. There is no way we can change our outcome we just have to ride the wave and believe this is our time.

So hurry up our time. V needs some sleep and we need a lack of sleep from staring at our beautiful little addition.